Chasing Dreams

I don’t know what got to me, I just know that I was restless beyond control last night, and I had to do something I’ve been putting off for so long to ease my restlessness.

And let me just say, I’m blaming Mae for this, because she had the courage to jump ship and do something I’ve always wanted to do, and ever since, I’ve been anticipating this inevitable day. The day I’d let go of an old domain name, for the sake of starting over (again), and leaving things behind.

Now there were three major things happening at the time of this awakening, which can, perhaps, explain the restlessness.

(1) I missed a trip to Hong Kong with J & M because I was sick, leaving me at home pondering about the tragedy that my life is, while my healthy friends carried on the dream that we happened to have saved up and planned for for so long (fine, Joni did most of the planning, but still);

(2) I was tested positive for a disease that has made the whole world tremble with fear at the sound of its name; which resulted to a self-imprisonment (or what they aptly call as “self-quarantine”), keeping me as far away from human beings as possible where no one could get infected — again leaving me with a lot of time to think about everything that I’ve always wanted that is not happening and everything that’s happening in my life that I’ve never hoped or imagined;

and (3) I quit from project 365, exactly two months after I started it. (I did what?) I know, I know, it’s just some stupid flickr project and who cares anyway. The only reason I’m listing this one as an important event is the fact that it says a lot about my inability to stay focused and carry on a goal to completion. I am such a failure.

So just imagine all the raging hormones that lead me to buy a domain, set up a new wordpress blog, modify a template to my liking, and type a handful about why I’m making such move.

Needless to say, I don’t want to be guitarchic anymore. Oddly, guitarchic is someone I never was and will never become anyway. I’ve had that domain since February 2007, not really a long time come to think of it, and now, guitarchic has to go. I’ll have to deal with my twitter and flickr handles another time.

Then again, I’m still not sure how I want to let her go. I was thinking of exporting old posts, and/or 301-ing everything just for the sake of not having to inform everyone that I moved. However, that site is still earning from TLA, so I haven’t really figured out what I want to do with that. Decisions, decisions.

Oh and don’t even make me start explaining why I chose this domain name. Quite frankly, I was choosing from a list of annoying, overly cheesy, teenybopper-sounding domain names, along the lines of pastelsky, chasingrainbows, and heartshaped. Ones that remind you of those days when the internet was young, and innocent, and carefree. Days when bloggers have blurtys and livejournals and guestbooks and pretty pastel-colored layouts along with their cheesy-sounding domain names.

My first ever blog’s URL happened to be riz.daydreemz.com, did I ever mention that? I tell you, that site was a magical place, at least to my seventeen-year-old self. It was a place where I didn’t care what people thought, and expressing myself was the most important thing.

I’m obviously relieving those years, so please, just let me. I’m not sure until when this domain is going to last, but for now, it probably doesn’t matter.

Three months ago when I told my then-boss that I was going to resign, he asked me why, and I told him, “it’s time to chase my dreams“. To which he replied, “Okay, I’m not about to get in the way of chasing dreams, but give me a month.”

So yeah, maybe I blame my former boss for this domain name too.

Hello, world. Yes, it’s Riz. And this is my new blog.

*Photo credit: Icanread

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