On a different note, someone messaged me this morning about a blog I posted one year ago. And since I’m running out of topics to talk about, I thought I’d share this instead:
I was lurking at one of your blogs like I always do, I came to read this entry. I was particularly drawn to these lines:
“You know how it feels like when you’re back with an old love affair after exploring and testing other options, realizing that he is still the love of your life, maybe you didn’t even stop loving him after all? Forgive me for the tacky illustration, but that’s how blue is like to me. Home, puppy love turned love-of-my-life, the color that I want to wake up to in the morning, surround me the whole day, the last thing I see before I close my eyes. I’ve seen all the other colors, but it all comes back to blue. I can’t wait to see how my blue room is going to look (and feel) like.”
And then I thought that you could be describing Kuya Bud! Seriously. It’s like siya yung blue ng buhay mo. I am not sure if it makes sense. But I tried to substitute the color “blue” in your entry with “Bud” and it just fits! Haha.
This is me saying after all these months, that I am completely amazed at how God worked in your life. He is indeed a sovereign God who is constantly molding you. And boy you are really beautiful now more than ever! I never imagined saying this but you add inspiration in my ordeals/life now. I’m glad to know you more and more.
My message-sender is right, God is really amazing. Beyond amazing. I know it with all my heart—that God did something extraordinary with this ordinary life of mine—and whenever people tell me and affirm that to me, I just feel more in awe. I feel undeserving to be an inspiration to someone (anyone!) coz I know how much I stumbled and failed and repented and crawled back up all these years. Ohh those mistakes I made when I was younger! But I’m glad that even with my failures, God was gracious to me and still made a beautiful story out of this life.
Thanks, Pat, for your delayed reaction. It made my day. Tara, let’s do Dreamerie again! (: